new chapter

Well as some of you know, today i became the Starbucks manager at Bashas. It was bittersweet to say the least. Don't get me wrong, I was eventually hoping to become manager someday but I was not excited to see my manager go, and I was definitely not prepared. There is still a lot of stuff I don't know about the job, and there a lot of things I need to learn. But  I do have incredible co-workers standing behind me, ready to help me out whenever I need it. My store director Juan is seriously one in a million, and probably one of my favorite managers I have ever had in my work life, which is saying a lot, because I have had incredible bosses over the years. What makes Juan different is that he cares for his members and will look after them and not take advantage of them. Two weeks ago I was attending a wedding and had the day off, and there was someone who didn't show up for their shift and so there was only one person working the Starbucks on a very busy day, Juan could have easily called me in, but instead told everyone not to call me at all, because he knew this day was important to me. That really meant a lot, especially because my previous store director would have called me anyways. My previous director said he cared about me, but he knew I would do anything for him and would work whenever he wanted me to, and he used it to his advantage, which i didn't realize until a few years later. But that's where Juan's different. He won't do that, which I really appreciate.
So even though I'm extremely terrified as I start this new chapter in my life, I know God will take care of me, and I know there's a reason as to why He put me into the position of manager. I just don't know why yet, but He has always been faithful to me, even when i don't deserve it whatsoever, which is 100% because honestly who really does deserve Gods love and grace? No one does, but God gives it to us just the same. He will always be faithful to us. We just have to trust Him. :) I have definitely stopped trying to predict what He's going to do next, because just when I think I have it all figured out, God surprises me and does it how I least expect, but it's always the better way. It's very humbling to say the least.

serious. and

Recently I was told that I probably connected well with kids. When I inquired as to why they would say that, they replied, "because when you get all excited, you act just like them." I have to admit that stung a little. But it did get me thinking. Does everyone see me that way? Do I act childish and obnoxious and immature? Do any of my friends take me seriously? I know I'm joyful and get excited easily over the little things in life when other people don't. Is that why nobody takes me seriously anymore? Cause they see me as an excitable child? Do I need to grow up and act all calm and collective and reserved from now on? How do I change who I am?
I shouldn't. God made me the way I am and I shouldn't change that. He loves me for who I am. Who cares what others think? I shouldn't. Which is actually easier said then done considering I'm a huge people pleaser and constantly try to go out my way to please people and make sure they are happy. Which I'm trying to work on not doing so much, cause its not healthy to either people involved. It just asks for dependency on me and makes me run into the ground. I will still be joyful with others, but not go out of my way overly please them. And i will still get excited over little things but it doesn't mean I'm childish and immature. So if you don't like me for who I am, than please tell me, and we won't have to hang out anymore. But if you do legitimately enjoy my company, let me know. it's nice to have that affirmation and reassurance sometimes. It lets me know I'm not a total screw up.