Ever since Sophia was born, I've been struggling with feelings of guilt. Guilt that I couldn't keep her in me longer than 27 weeks. Guilt that even though it was to save my life, she has to struggle to get through this crucial time in her life.
My brain knows it's ok and that she's just fine and that it was for the best, but my heart wishes she could have stayed until term and if I had my way she'd still be in me.
But God reminds me that he has a plan for everything and that this is for his glory. I see it everyday. The way Sophia has captured so many hearts. She is such a beautiful special little girl, and even though she's only been around for 4 ½ weeks, she's already touched so many people's lives. She's already doing so much for God and He's definitely using her to teach us patience and making us stronger.
God is the ultimate healer and I'm confident He'll heal her and make her stronger. My flesh wants to scoop her up and take all the struggles away from her, but God is reminding me that that's his job, and I need to trust Him.
And he's already shown me just how much he can do with her. She's smart, sweet, feisty and such a fighter. I know she'll come far and one day she'll come home to us.
