Recently I was told that I probably connected well with kids. When I inquired as to why they would say that, they replied, "because when you get all excited, you act just like them." I have to admit that stung a little. But it did get me thinking. Does everyone see me that way? Do I act childish and obnoxious and immature? Do any of my friends take me seriously? I know I'm joyful and get excited easily over the little things in life when other people don't. Is that why nobody takes me seriously anymore? Cause they see me as an excitable child? Do I need to grow up and act all calm and collective and reserved from now on? How do I change who I am?
I shouldn't. God made me the way I am and I shouldn't change that. He loves me for who I am. Who cares what others think? I shouldn't. Which is actually easier said then done considering I'm a huge people pleaser and constantly try to go out my way to please people and make sure they are happy. Which I'm trying to work on not doing so much, cause its not healthy to either people involved. It just asks for dependency on me and makes me run into the ground. I will still be joyful with others, but not go out of my way overly please them. And i will still get excited over little things but it doesn't mean I'm childish and immature. So if you don't like me for who I am, than please tell me, and we won't have to hang out anymore. But if you do legitimately enjoy my company, let me know. it's nice to have that affirmation and reassurance sometimes. It lets me know I'm not a total screw up.
I legitimately enjoy your company! :)
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